jody

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 16:26:22 GMT

okay. i'm not sure what to put in this.

i should change my icon, arash & i broke up.

new boyfriend = casey. = 0)~

i've never been happier. ever.

leave me some comments.

does anyone still read this?

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 01:01:49 GMT

so i updated my friends list, and everything. i'm trying to get back into this whole LJ thing. it's silly but i've missed some of you and reading your journals(katie, kelli.. the rest of you)

anyways. i'm car shopping. i've been car shopping forever, but something always gets messed up when i find one! :\

i'm jobless. ponderosa closed to remodel and who knows if it's going to open? i'm going job hunting again tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes!

arash and i are still together :) it will be ONE WHOLE YEAR on october 28th.. i'm so proud.. i love the kid <3

i'm getting my tonsils out on october 21 (1 week from tomorrow) anyone ever had theirs out? i'm anxious to know what happens.. i haven't had my pre-op yet so i don't know what they are going to do or anything.. i mean, i've had my wisdom teeth out so i don't see how this experience can be just too different, i mean i'm sure it is but not really. whatever.

i don't know, comment you guys! i've missed you!!!!

hii everyone

Mon, 13 Oct 2003 18:39:01 GMT

hi everyone. this isn't jody, this is jody's best friend in the whole world - katie. now, she might kill me for doing this but oh well.

i would like you all to konw just how much she means to me. i dont even know when we first started talking but seriously we would talk for horus on end ab out nothing. hell we still do but now we'r eboth a little buesier. shes been there for mee countless times when no one else was. she sits at her friends houses and listens to me cry on the phone over stupid boys and petty argusments with friends and i do the same fo rher. well except she doesnt call me bc of her grandpa but you know.. she txts me and then ic all her back. anyway... what im tryihng to say is you people dont realize how perfect jody is. she is the most wonderful friend i could ever ask for and i hate that we dont hang out like.. all the time. alllll im really trying to say is JODY I LOVE YOU MORE.

ahahhaah.

k thats all byyye.

Thu, 17 Jul 2003 02:01:00 GMT

new user picture. wo0t.

Sun, 08 Jun 2003 20:40:14 GMT

hi. i havel ong hair. long as in past my bra strap long. i'm about to go get it allllll cut off. how short? who knows. maybe to my chin, maybe to my shoulders. damnit. okbye. il take pictures when i get home

Tue, 22 Apr 2003 03:44:30 GMT

my new hair! comments!

Sun, 16 Mar 2003 23:17:45 GMT

i got in to SIUE!!

Thu, 13 Mar 2003 22:34:55 GMT

does ANYONE know how to put up an away message on 8.0? maybe im just retarded but i can't figure it out..

Sun, 09 Mar 2003 20:39:21 GMT

so, im making this friends only.

if you comment ill add you. no questions asked :D

or email me.

Fri, 07 Mar 2003 00:12:21 GMT

stolen from miss katie.

ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? my grandma
2. What is your weapon of choice? my voice
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? nah, probably not.
4. How about of the same sex? yep, i have and i will again
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? my grandma
6. What is your pet peeve? people saying "oh! remember that time we... oh wait, you weren't there"
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? i forget 'em all the fucking time

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? take my medecine
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? around 6 pm
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: jason
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? i have to pain the living room
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? yup
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? lol, i can honestly say ive never worked out, outside of a sport i was playing
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? none

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? i dont have yuppie beverage of choice
2. Meat eaters: dark or white meat? white
Vegetarians: Vegan or no? i eat MEAT!
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? oh my god. ok, i had 17 shots of vodka + alcohol poisoning. boy was that a fun night
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? nope
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? nope
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? all of the above
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? lol no, but i love dead baby jokes

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? way too many
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? like 10
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? yup
4. Have you "done it"? yup
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? hm, i odnt really know.. stomach i guess
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? nope
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? yup -- pregnancy

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? zero
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? uhh.. none?
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? clothes, cars, college
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yup
6. Have you ever stolen anything? yup
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? only a couple hundred

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? i won the spelling bee in 6th grade LOL ME TOO KATIE!
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? i was valedictorian ofmy 8th grade class
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? to find a cure for a disease
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? yup
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yup
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yup
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? i threw up

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? melissa's mustang
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? hmm..
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? britney or christina
4. Have you ever been cheated on? yup
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yeah
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? patience
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? lust!! (yup, i agree)

Wed, 05 Mar 2003 14:24:36 GMT

today's a late day, so i got sometime to kill..

last night that joke we did to patrick went way beyond control -- he ended up calling me a "stupid peice of shit" and i dont know, maybe it was immature on my part, but he talks about how nice of a guy he is then says shit like that - whatever - its not worth my time, he obviously wasn't even a good friend to me, muchless a good boyfriend.

today is ash wednesday. which means no meat for jo during lunch. which means mass today. weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

k, school - later kids.

Wed, 05 Mar 2003 04:24:02 GMT

so chris (patricks best friend) and i decided it would be funny to tell patrick that we fucked. lololol. wow, i need a life

patrick (10:14:50 PM): so you fucked chris?
patrick (10:14:55 PM): i dunno if i beleiev him yet
joho2558 (10:15:11 PM): thats a rude wya to start a conversation
patrick (10:15:20 PM): oh well
joho2558 (10:15:28 PM): right, if orgot you dont care bout that
joho2558 (10:15:41 PM): do u really care if i did, or didn't?
patrick (10:15:53 PM): should i care?>
joho2558 (10:16:04 PM): i dont see why you would
patrick (10:16:13 PM): well then theres your fuckin answer
joho2558 (10:16:20 PM): uhm, okay?
joho2558 (10:16:26 PM): if you dont care whyd u even bother asking
patrick (10:16:37 PM): cos i figured i would
patrick (10:16:40 PM): bye
joho2558 (10:16:45 PM): whoa wait a fucking second
joho2558 (10:16:46 PM): whats the matter
patrick (10:16:51 PM): no'
patrick (10:16:52 PM): fuck it
joho2558 (10:17:04 PM): patrick
patrick (10:17:05 PM): it doesnt even matter
patrick (10:17:07 PM): bye
joho2558 (10:17:10 PM): uhh.. bye?

Mon, 03 Mar 2003 03:44:12 GMT

ahh.. busy busy weekend

saturday started out boring.. like always.. but it's cool.. i sat around.. then around 4:30ish me, jeff, and billy went to highland to pick up my little sister @ kami's then we went to walmart so billy could get a new Xbox game & a new toy.. he's so fucking spoiled.. he gets $20/wk for doing his homework.. i get SHIT for doing mine.. angel gets $200 at the end of the school year, and i'm the first one of my mom's kids to graduate and im not getting anyhing neat.. FUCK. i work my ass off and they have to be bribed. pisses me off.... hi, my names jody and i'm a spoiled bitch..

my sister got home from work around 5ish and then we got ready, and went to my aunt's house for my cousin melissa's going away party. she's leaving for the army wednesday :( she was my best friend for 13 years, and we just drifted apart after she changed highschools. god im gonna miss her.. i hope she does ok!! my whole family (and charlotte) was there.. i got to see a lot of people.. charlotte and i left around 8 and droveto taco bell to see luke :) got some choco tacos.. talked to mike for a while.. didn't get to talk to luke much, but hey, it's all good..

we came back to my aunt's house and then we were going to leave to go to the hospital to see jeff's sister (natalie, shes 14 and just had a baby girl).. so i went downstairs to say goodbye to melissa and started crying :'(.. but we ended up not going b/c visiting hours were over.. so poop.. i went back upstairs and talked to my aunts, had lots of ineresting convos with them.. by this time everyone was drunk.. we had a keg.. my family is so ghetto.. my aunt timmie (my aunt who's house the party was at) was SO gone. she kept trying to give me cups of beer.. im like aunt timmie i do not like beer, you know that.. she's like "jody and charlotte!! THERE ARE CUTE BOYS OUT THERE!" so she literally drags me and charlotte out ther.. and introduces me to this guy Damon.. who's actually decent looking.. he's 19 and is studying pre-dentistry at my future college. which is kinda cool b/c ill be studying pre-med.. he has black hair and BRIGHT blue eyes.. he, his brother, and another guy are all from Iran. so english isn't their first language.. so half the time they spoke in i forgot the name of their language, and other times in english. it was really cool.. his name is Arash Damon. isnt' that odd? but his family calls him Arash (hiraj) and us "americans" call him damon. the other guy, Nami, he has only been in america for three years. but he has got to be the NICEST person i've ever met. he seem genuinely interested in me and charlotte as PEOPLE, like he kept asking us about school and what we wanted to do when we grew up, they are all just so smart. His little brother was cute too, but he was 15.. and even I don't go that young.. haha.. melissa was SO Drunk. hilarious, but drunk. she spilled her beer on me and i was drenched. definitely not kosher, but shit happens. and in between this my cell rings and guess who it was! dun dun dun.. MISS KATIE! aw, she was excited because she got a good night kiss ;) after i got off the phone w/her i threw the phone down and im like "I WANT A FUCKING GOOD NIGHT KISS!!!" and Damon just kind of looks at me.. haha.. so.. charlotte and i sit around.. talk to people.. it was a lot more fun then it sounds, its just hard to recall every detail.. but OH MY GOD. there was this one girl there who was so FUCKING annoying. i just wanted to fucking hit her in her face. i dont deal well w/girls, especially girls who think they know it all. fuck. i was like "god damn sit down" and she just looks at me.. JESUS.. she was dancing all skanky with NO ONE. just in the middle of the room.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

luke called me @ 12. :D ahhh.. once again ::butterflies:: oh btw katie whats ur email? i need to show you his picture. anyways.. damon followed me outside while i was on the phone.. and during this time brittany and liz walk up. whoa.. first of all.. it pissed me off.. i didn't understand why brittany was there.. i'm odd, but damn, it was my FAMILY thing. i know liz came bc shes best friends w/melissa, but brittany was just tagging along w/liz -- it was my family thing and i don't know, i just didn't want her there for some reason.. :[ shit, what the fuck is wrong w/me?!!!! but, we had to leave @ 12 because charlotte was my ride home and she has a 1:00 curfew. :\ oh! refer back to the "goodnight kiss" thing. as we're getting in the car, damon like stops us and makes me roll down the window.. and i do and he kisses his two fingers and puts them on my lips! i was like AWWWW.. it was actually really cute.. and now i can't get him out of my mind.. siiigh..

anyways.. got home around 12:20ish.. luke called.. talked to him until around 1:30 or 2... then he had to go so i watched the rest of shawshank redemption and fell asleep... GOD i want him back..

anyways, that was my saturday night :) hope ya'll had lots o' fun!!

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 17:13:57 GMT

once again, it snowed. fuck. snow was ok, like, 2 months ago.. but now it's like damn go away

ok. friday. school was school, as it always is. nothing exciting EVER happens. i have not seen one fight in the four years i've been at school. WHY DO I HAVE TO GO TO THE GAY "GOOD PEOPLE" SCHOOL. everyone thinks we're stuck up and rich. i wanna go to public school sometimes. but whatever.. we got out early (@ 2:30) so liz and i went and picked her up from our old grade school & visited some of our old teachers. aw..

i got home at like... 3:30 and hot anthony (from new years and stuff) had left me an IM saying "hey jody get a hold of me" but i never called him. thats my problem. i NEVER call people. its gay.. i left him a message before i left i was like "uhh.. i lost your #... so call my cell when you read this" :-\ brittany & i decided to go out to troy and visit luke & mike. so we did. we drove by and there was like.. 20 people in line so we were like FUCK THAT! and drove around troy for a while. drove past justin's to see if he was home b/c he told me to come over, so yeah.. he wasn't home though.. so we made a turn-about (i failed that on my driving test haha) and went back to taco bell.. decided to go through the drive through b/c we knew luke was working it.. it took like 20 minutes.. it was packed.. so we order our food.. and get up to the window and its $8.04.. and we only had a one dollar bill and a cup full of change. hahah. so we paid for $7.05 in change, and got a penny back :) but we went inside and ate our food... (random thought - i wanna be a VS model) and there was this guy there, his name tag said justin but his real names josh? so we called him Joshtin. he kept talking to us.. it was amusing.. mike kept coming out and saying hi.. such a nice boy.. he's so in like w/brittany.. it's cute..

we were @ taco bell for like.. an hour and a half b/c we didnt have anything else to do until like 8:30 when brittany had to go pick christian up from work. luke comes up to the counter and he does that "come here" face.. so i go up there and talk to him.. and hes like "what do u think of that guy" and he nods over to joshtin.. and im like uhhh, why and luke says "because he wants to fuck you." i dont know why, but that pissed me off. i just thought it was a really asshole thing to say, but im weird -- sometimes shit pisses me off and sometimes it doesnt.. depends on my mood.. but whatever.. we decided to leave like 2 minutes after that.. and we decided since no one was in the drive through we'd go BACK through there and order another taco. we get up to the window and luke just gave us this look. i miss those looks :) awwww.. and michael sticks his head out to brittany and is like "bye doll" it was just CUTE. ahh. lukes like "ill call you later.." i feel like a 12 year old with a crush... oo, and as we were leaving, we got out on the main road and i look over and lukes got his head out the drive through window, watching us and waving. :D

i took brittany home after that. then i went out to jamies. once again, i get there and she's no where to be found. this is the 3rd friday in a row.. haha, it was only jimmy (jamies brother), tony, bj, and patpants tho. danny ad cisco are in meh-hee-co. damn, its weird.. i bitch about how danny's all over me.. then when he's not, i miss the attention.. oooooooooooh well.. i sat down there w/those 4 guys while they played mortal kombat on PS2.. and watched tony attempt to drink his 18 beers.. he was like 9 when i came back up stairs bc i heard jamie. i played w/the baby for a while.. it started to snow REALLY hard.. and im like fuck it.. im goin home.. so i did.. and on my way home tony calls my cell and he's like "come back downstairs" im like tony i left.. "what! and u didnt even say bye!" then i hear him tell jimmy that i left bc it was snowing.. jimmy was like "tell her i said be careful!" that was sweet :) i like when people care.. tony kept telling me how he thinks i dont like him b/c i always leave w/o saying bye. riiiiiight. ok. then he kept telling me that he wants to see me, and talk to me.. thats why he called me.. he was so fucked up.. its fun tho.. :D good kid..

i got home.. and luke called me not long after. we talked until about 2 -- so 'bout two 1/2 hours or so.. i told him liked him.. we had a LONG conversation about it.. but that's all private shit... well, personal.. i just don't feel like putting it all out there.. and i dont know :D it was a good conversation though..

today is my cousin melissa's going away party :( shes going into the air force. we were best friends up until aobut 8th grade.. im really goin to miss her...

alright kids, later

Fri, 28 Feb 2003 02:28:41 GMT

alright, so nothing is happening! FUCK! it snowed today. like hellatiously during 6th hour. it was coming down like a motherfucker - i wanted to call and come home, but i stayed, and it eventually stopped.. so it's all good

i haven't accomplished anything lately. im doin good in school, i just don't want to be there anymore. i just go through the daily motions out of habit.. after 13 years im ready to have a break. be on my own. yeah dude

senior year has gone by SO fast. made lots of memories, none of which i will forget. : )

rambling.. anyways.. patrick talked to me yesterday.. our conversation went something like this

patrick: you talk to matt anymore?
jody: yeah, sometimes
patrick: that's cool
jody: not really, i hate when people fuck me over, then try to talk to me like everything's okay

then guess what-- patrick quit talking to me.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHA!!!!!!

i talked to luke last night. blah.

and im done

Tue, 25 Feb 2003 22:06:31 GMT

LOOK! A NEW ICON! i'm not 100% sure if i like it yet.. we'll see..

nothing new has happened. been talking to luke. eh, well i talked to him last night. he called me and hes like "i found out why my girlfriend is mad at me" im like "why luke" he says "because she says that i act like i talk to you 24/7" AHAHAHAHA. riiiiight .. because we've talked twice in the past week. oh well she can kiss my ass! i need to tell him how i feel .. FAT CHANCE (good book, anyone ever read it?) but yeah ... he knows that i like him, i know he knows - we know eachother way too well for him NOT to know (wow, im all about the knows today) anyways.. nothing is happening in my life! WHAT THE FUCK! jesus christ. im all angry. anyways..

ok, bye.

Sat, 22 Feb 2003 07:19:51 GMT

hm, i dont remember the last thing i wrote about. whatever.

i went up to ISU today to visit. i love it up there. and there's a very high hot guy ratio to ugly guy ratio that i saw. not bad. but whatever. thats over and done with.

haven't done much lately. ive been sick. so i only had 2 days of school this week! good deal..

whatever, just thought i'd do a quick update so you all would know i hadn't disappeared off the face of the earth. yeah

oh yeah, i went and visited luke tonight @ taco bell (where he works) i also happened to visit the exact same time his girlfriend was there. but oh well, i have that habit of not caring about what girls think about me. so, i just acted like she wasn't there. after all, he lots his virginity to me.. not her. yeah, thats what i fucking thought. i miss him. like really bad. :-[

another survey. kiss my ass.

Wed, 19 Feb 2003 22:13:26 GMT

stolen from misskatie

Part One: Right Now!

First name: Jody
Middle name: Meagen
Age: 17
Birthdate: June 19, 1985
Eye color: green.
Hair color: blonde.
Hair--straight or curly?: depends on the weather
Height: 5'3"
High school: althoff catholic highschool
What college to you want to go to, or go to already?: SLU. SIUE. ISU. McKendree
Major: pre med
What do you want to do for a living?: be a doctor, or a mom
Favorite classes: college algebra
Hobbies: sitting on my ass..? no, school, sporting events.. i swear i used to have a life.. it all just sorta faded away
Do you have a picture online?: yup
Do you have an online journal?: yup
Do you live in a house or apartment?: a house
Location: marine, illinois
Classes you are taking now: college algebra, speech communications, honors modern us history, honors latin 4, honors advanced writing, bio II, christian lifestyles
Do you drive?: not well
Do you have siblings?: 4.

Part Two: Future
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: a momma & a doctor
20 years?: awww, the cute mom that makes brownies and cupcakes and is way too involved in their kids life.
When do you want to be married?: 24
How many kids do you want to have?: two
Where do you want to live when you get older?: right here

Part 3: Favorites

Horror movie: hm.. i don't realy know
"Quality" movie: does quality mean sex?
Sitcom tv show: gilmore girls
Drama tv show: eh?
Reality tv show: joe millionare. even though the ending was so predictable
T.V. channel: mtv
Talk show: none.. well, oprah, if you can count that as a talk show
Holiday: halloween
days of the week: friday.
Books: "someone like you" by sarah dessen. you all should read it
Magazines: cosmo
Outdoor activity: sex!
Indoor activity: SEX!
Singer/artist/bands: n sync
CD: my burnedo nes
Thing in your room: my computer :D
Gum: orbit
Candy: heath bars
Drink (w/alcohol): vodka
Drink (w/o alcohol): caff. free coke
Animal: chihuahuas :D we have one
Toothpaste: shit, i forgot the name
Shampoo/conditioner: eh.. tresseme' ooo la la..
xmas/holiday movie: national lampoons xmas vacation
Muppet character: kermy
Color: yellow
Starbucks drink: i've never had starbucks
Restaurant: chevys
Bar: i don't go to bars
Place: the mizall
Song: bad days or konstantine by something corporate
Website: www.ididyourmom.com haha i just made that up.. i bet its porn though
Thing to do online: talk..?
Car: yellow mustang ocnvertible

Part Four: Fashion

Favorite brands: ...fuck i don't care
Favorite makeup brands: dont care bout this either
Favorite department stores: none
Favorite stores: i just go to the mall
Favorite place to shop: where i find something i like
Favorite mall: I DO NOT CARE.
Favorite jewelry designer: i don't wear jewelry.
Favorite handbag brand: who the fuck is kate spade/
Favorite nail colors: uhhh.. clear

Part Five: Which one?

Prada or Gucci?: neither.
Black ink or Blue ink?: black.
Gum or Mint?: gum.
Soda or Water?: soda
Digital camera or Regular camera?: regular.
Coffee or Tea?: coffee
Phone or IM?: phone.
Museum or Shopping?: shopping!
Hot of Cold?: hot
Rain or Snow?: rain

Part Six: Have You?

Gone skinny dipping?: no
Been hospitalized?: yeah
Been on a cruise?: no
Met anyone famous?: no
Broken a law?: yes

Part Seven: Randomness

What does your room look like?: its all white.. and blue and pink adn... if u care that much ill show u pictures
If you could have any super power, what would it be?: read people's minds.. <-- i agree KT
If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?: up YOUR ASS
Do you have a tv in your room?: yup
Do you have your own phone line?: yup
What kind of cellphone do you have?: verizon
What kind of computer do you use?: HP
Do you play any instruments?: piano

SURVEY!

Tue, 18 Feb 2003 04:51:19 GMT

1. If you could go on the show BECOMING, who would you become? britney spears

2. What song would you do? crazy

3. Do you share a b-day with anyone famous? my aunt

4. Where's the weirdest place you've been? down your pants

5. Do you look your age? most people think i'm 15

6. Exactly how tall are you? 63 inches

7. Have you ever met anyone famous? uhh... the cardinals mascot.

8. Do you have a boring life? on occasion

9. What's the most spontaneous thing you've ever done? we randomly drove to nashville on saturday night bc we were bored

10. Have you ever thought about just skipping school one day? yep

11. You scared to do it? yep

12. Have you ever gotton in a fight with someone, decided to give them a chance and then they backstabbed you again? i don't think so

13. Who?

14. If you woke up as Britney Spears tommorow, what would you do? shit a brick. shes hot.

15. Whats the most couragous thing you've ever done? i really don't know

16. Have you ever made up a word? yep

17. What's it mean? can't tell u ... its a jody & brittany thing

18. Whats the coolest word in the entire english language? bungalow

19. What would you name your baby girl (list a few..)? alianna, lucy

20. What would you name your baby boy (list a few..)? zachary stephen

21. Do you actually get anything out of those dumb magazines (seventeen, teen, cosmo, vouge, ect.)? hell yeah. cosmo gives lots of good sex advice

22. Whats the worst accident thats ever happened in your kitchen? my sister almost cut off her finger

23. What was your first homecoming like? boring

24. What was prom like? haven't gone yet

25. Whats the worst dance you've ever been to? christmas ball

26. Remeber that old show, "Under the Umbrella Tree"? nope

27. What was your favorite show growing up? melroe's place (haha). that and skinner-ma-rinky-dink show

28. Ever gotton drunk? m hm

29. Ever been to a party? yup

30. What was it like? well, ive been to a bunch.. so..

31. Who did you talk to? lol what the fuck

32. Are you social? sometimes

33. What kind of music do you listen to? anything

34. Ever gone to the mall/movies just to hang out? yup

35. Ever gone to the store looking like a scrub thinking no one would see you but then you see old friends? well, i dont care what people think about the way i look.. so.. no

36. Whats your most embarresing moment? when i threw up on matts bed. :-[

37. Whos the coolest teacher? mr haida

38. Whats the easiest class? speech comm

39. Whats the hardest class? honors modern us history

40. Whats your age limit for dating? uhh 20?

41. Would you ever date someone outside of your social group? yeah

42. Are you in a clique? yup

43. Ever experience unconditional love? yup

44. Know what that means? yup

45. Write the first thing that pops into your head: penis

46. Type a song lyric: "its been a bad day.. another bad day.. and all i wanna do is look at you and know im okay"

47. Whats your favorite song based on lyrics? saints and sailors

48. Whats your favorite song based on music? bye bye bye

49. Whats the funest trip you've been on? ozarks

50. Whats your favorite poem? the one anne wrote

51. Are you mean? sometimes.. ;)

52. Are you really sweet? sickeningly. whoa, i know thats spelled wrong

53. Ever meet someone putting on a front all the time? huh

54. Dont you hate when people do that? right...

55. Do you act yourself? yep.. sure do

56. Have you ever lied about something to seem cooler? yep

57. Do you wear makeup? yup

58. Whats "old school" mean to you? NES baby

59. Dont you love it when someone tells it how it is? sure..? this surveys gay

60. Dont you hate fake people? i don't hate anyone

61. Who has the coolest house (that you've been to)? jamies

62. Do you think most famous people deserve to be famous? i dont care one way or the other

63. Ever heard "Youth of a Nation"? yup

64. What do you think of that song? its sad

65. What do you think a gat is? your mom naked

66. Are you sure? yes

67. Do you like rap? yeah

68. Are you into the whole rap scene? no

69. Whats the best pickup like you've heard? "are you mexican..?" :no: "oh, do you want mexican in you?"

70. Say you saw a really hot guy at school one day and you had no idea who he was, would you talk to him? no

71. What would you say to "break the ice"? id probably fart or something and embarass myself

72. Is "Bootylicious" getting old? no

73. Do you think question 69 was a coincidence? i don't remember what question 69 was

74. What time is it? 10:55 pm

75. Approximetly how long did this take to fill out? ehhh.. 15 minutes

Mon, 17 Feb 2003 03:40:25 GMT

first off, i hate snow.

anyways, got my wisdom teeth out. im in pain. ahhhhh, my coedine does wonders. not. i hate it. its so fucking annoying. ive been sleeping for the past two days, i guess thats good.

patrick IMed me
"hey kid.. feel better.. id call you but i dont wanna wake you up.. call me later if you want.. bye" my dumb ass called him. good thing his cell was out of service. i like when i dont wanna call someone, but i do, and they dont answer. it just makes things easier. im getting over him day by day, but damnit i wish he still liked me. and damnit, i dont wanna think about it

friday night (valentines day) i hung out at jamies. nothing to go into detail about, or nothing that i want to go into detail about. just hung out there.. watched tommy boy.. got a valentines kiss. hahah :D

and yeah, nothing else. no school tomorrow. friday im goin up to ISU to visit. should be fun..

anyone on right now? im bored, so IM me on joho2558. later kids.

Fri, 14 Feb 2003 04:57:44 GMT

sometimes i feel like i can't breathe.. at the same time i feel like if i stop my world will crumble. i only have myself, yet i don't even trust me.

im so sick of this feeling. my mind usually wanders from "us".. but goes right back to 'what might've been' right now the only thing comforting is living in the past. that's pathetic. we weren't even together that long, but fuck, i always get so attached. and i always thing 'god damn this will be different'. well, let me tell you girls something, it's NEVER different.

both matt & patrick promised me they wouldn't fuck me over, broken promises define my immature relationships.. because thats what they are, immature. i just want to love someone, i just want to be loved. why is that so hard. i didn't do anything, i tried so hard to make it work, maybe i tried too hard. that's my problem. the guys i pick never try hard enough, so i end up doing twice as much caring to make up for the lack of affection i get from them.

but why is it me. why do i have to be the girl that guys date to realize who they are REALLY in love with. i have to cry so other girls don't have to, i have to be hurt so other girls can smile.

anyways, i got accepted into ISU.

Tue, 11 Feb 2003 04:47:24 GMT

just thought i'd let you all know. ive lost faith in all guys. seriously. i refuse to go out w/another guy anytime soon

patrick broke up w/me.

Sat, 08 Feb 2003 05:30:02 GMT

i know i haven't commented lately, in anyone's journals.. but don't hate me. :-X

just a quick update.. nothing really has happened. school is school, i have a mad case of senioritis, although im still managing to have straight a's. hmm. fucked up

i haven't really don't anything. im getting my wisdom teeth out saturday the 15th instead of monday the 17th. so, my saturday night will be spent at home with patrick watching movies or something.

hung out at patricks thursday. yeah, fun

wednesday went out w/jamie. fun.

tuesday stayed home

monday stayed home.

wow im fucking exciting.

Thu, 06 Feb 2003 13:13:49 GMT

quick update before school. (hopefully) feb 14th (were off school) jamie and i are going to screamin demons to get a tatoo. mmm hmm. we're both getting the chinese symbol for "Father" with our dads names under them in cursive.. as a memorial thing (her dad died like... 7 months after mine did) on the back of our necks. mm hmm. im excited, just thought i'd share that.

Wed, 05 Feb 2003 02:56:26 GMT

im getting all 4 of my wisdom teeth cut out on feb. 17th. theyre putting me to sleep, and all that jazz. and i can't have anything to eat or drink (not even water) for 8 hours afterwards. and apparently i'm going to look like a chipmunk. anyone had theirs out that would like to tell me all about it.. good and bad?